Deputy Officer Iklix Varn (Human)

On the seventh day Varn asked a question.

It had been coming for a week. The Academy teaches a Deputy to hold a question until the answer is not standing in front of them, and for six days the answer to everything had been standing at the desk with four bars at her collar. The log, when Varn read back through it standing, was a column of shifts in a dozen hands going back years, every one of them saying what had happened and none of them saying that nothing had.

Varn said, "Why not?"

Smith looked up. She did not ask why not what. She waited, which was worse.

"The entry. Everyone who reads it knows what it means. It is a long way of writing that nothing happened." Varn heard the Academy in it and could not stop. "Why does the Corps not let it say so?"

Smith put the pen down, which she did when a shift was over, and it was not over. She said, "There was a girl at a well."

Varn waited for the rest of the sentence. This time there was a rest of it.

"On Earth. On an island, a long time ago — 1216 by the old count, fourteen centuries before this shift. A thorn well with a name for healing, and a small house of people who kept it, and a girl who came to sit with the sick there when she was fourteen. She was good at it. She did not fuss." Smith said it the way she said the posting: flat, as a fact, no comfort in it. "She sat with them for sixteen years. Then one night she kept a vigil at the well alone, and something came."

Varn did not move the step. "What came?"

"That is the question, and she is the reason it is still a question." Smith's hands were loosely together, the way they were in the corridor when a resident was talking. "She said the air over the water folded. Like cloth. It did not tear where it folded. She said something was in the clearing that was too big for the clearing, and the clearing held it. She said it was at every distance at once — as near as her hand, as far as the hills, both, not one after the other. She said it spoke, and the voice was not in her ears. Then the folding went backwards and the clearing was a clearing, and the well ran warm for three days. It had never run warm before. It never ran warm again."

"She said it was the well's own saint, come on her own night. Who else comes to a well on her own night. And in the same breath she said the shape looked nothing like the saint — nothing like the carving, nothing like any picture anyone in that place had ever made. She said both. She did not pick one." Smith paused. "The sick she treated with the warm water got better, more of them and faster than anyone could remember, and people wanted to say she had been healed by what she saw, or given healing to hand out. She would not have it. She said she had been shown. She said she had not been healed. The scribe who wrote it down put in his own book that he did not understand the difference. He wrote it down anyway."

"What was it?" Varn said. "What does the Corps say it was?"

"The Corps keeps her account in its archive, beside things it has measured a long way from that island. There are scholars now who say what came was a Levril — one of the beings that stands at an edge and holds it and cannot reach in. There are chaplains who say the scholars and the girl were never answering the same question. The Corps says what she said." Smith's voice did not change. "It was the saint. It looked nothing like the saint. She was shown. She was not healed."

Varn had been raised on stories that ended, and this one would not, and the shape of it had a place in it that was empty.

"Was she chosen? For it?"

"There is a telling that says so. It is an old house's, and the house that keeps it tells you not to cite it." Smith picked the pen up. "She never said so. She said she was shown."

"Shown what?"

"She did not say."

That was the end of it. Smith turned back to the desk, and Varn stood one step too far from it with a story that had a girl in it and a well and a thing that came and no ending, and did not know what a Deputy was meant to do with that, and then, slowly, knew that the not knowing was the thing that had been handed over. It was not a comfort. It was not meant as one.

At the end of the shift Smith turned the log toward the Deputy and said, "Enter it."

Varn wrote the instruments, the hatch, the officers. Then the pen stopped over the page, because a thing had happened in the compartment that was not on any list of things that happened in it, and somebody who was not here could check it, because the account was in the archive.

Varn wrote: Field Officer Smith related the account of Aoife of Cill Aoife to the Deputy, from memory. Fourteen minutes.

Smith read it as though it had been longer, and initialled it, and said nothing at all.